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beatcomber-deactivated20170109 said:
{ " you don't own me. " fuck me up honestly : ] }

MEME // @beatcomber

                             “ NO ONE’S SAYIN’ I DO, Y’KNOW, ”   the words come from a place of hurt perhaps even he doesn’t quite understand. What had transpired between the two was strange, unusual, but somehow very RIGHT. Their souls were meant to be intertwined in more way than just one,  &  though it brought much confusion to the bassist otherwise set in his sexuality  ( in his pursuits of the female hordes he took so much pride in, such an act made him question himself, stall his aura of confidence  &  make him feel somewhat small ),  there comes a time where he stops questioning it, at least in John’s company, where he finds himself yearning  &  feeling the wound of his ego from the neglect, the withdrawal of something he hadn’t previously sought.  

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                      “ Y ’ never so much as bloody look at me anymore, y ’ know,  &  it’s fine, honest, it is, it’s just – y ’ know . . what ’ m I s ’ posed t ’ think ‘bout it all, John? If yer – If yer like Eppy, then, y ’ know, that’s fine, that’s great, like, I won’t think any less ’ a ye than I do him. Sure we may … tease  &  such, take him f ’ r a spin  &  put ‘im ‘round th ’ ringer, but, y ’ know, he is what he is, he’s a fuckin’ poof, right, ye can be a fuckin’ poof, too, if y ’ like, I just – I donno’, y ’ know, I …  Ever since – ”  it needs no repeating, for they both are aware of the recollection he’s touching on, the very same that seems to sit like a sore on his tongue: always getting in the way, biting down on it even when he tries his hardest to leave it be.  “ It’s like – where ’ ve  y ’ gone,  y ’ know? ”  A pause for a masochistic scoff of a chuckle, the slightest sound of unfortunate laughter in his throat.  “ ‘M startin’ t ’ think  ‘I’m Looking Through You’  is a better metaphor for you now, y ’ know, instead ‘a Jane… She changed, y ’ know, she’s not th ’ same girl I thought I was in love  &  all that fluffy stuff with, not anymore, anyway. Don’t you go changin’ on me too, Lennon… – All’s I’m sayin’ is, say what y ’ feel, right… I wanna know. ”